My baby girl turned two on Wednesday.
My last baby.
I cried.
She giggled.
*sigh*
I found out I was pregnant with Clancy three days after the future ex husband and I separated. Not great timing. It was perfect timing.
I loved being pregnant, it centred me. I had to be strong, not only for my little boys, but for the baby that was growing in my belly. Whenever things got too much for me, I'd put my hand on my swollen tummy and feel her move. I knew then that everything was going to be OK.
The moment my baby girl was born, I felt at peace and stronger, so much stronger then I had been in the years prior. This tiny little baby, who depended on me for everything, gave me so much. When she was 5 weeks old, I reached a turning point in my rocky relationship with the future ex husband where I realised that there was no going back, and only going forward. From that moment on, I was living my life for my three babies and myself. It felt right, and has ever since.
Clancy is a pure delight. Well, she has her terrible toddler moments, of course but honestly, she is just beautiful to be around. She has got her big brothers wrapped around her little finger. Her every wish, is there command. Her personality is a wonderful mixture of sweetness, bossiness, innocence and evil. She loves pretty things like necklaces and shoes. She also loves mud and cars. She loves to dance, while looking at her reflection in the television and she adores chasing her brothers around the house like a lunatic.
I know this sounds corny, but I believe that Clancy was sent to me at the stage of my life where I needed her most.
I feel the same way about her big brothers. They are all here for a reason. To drive me mad..... Nah, they are pretty awesome and I love them to bits.
I'm a very lucky Mummy to have my three babies and to witness their little individual personalities shine through every day. It really is the most rewarding, heartbreaking, loving job in the world.
Happy Birthday to my Clancy Therese. I love you so much my sweet little girl. Thank you for coming into my life and letting me love you.
xxxx
